Navy boot camp time is here. I’ll be gone for about 2mths so no activity from me. In the meantime follow my girlfriend’s blog, it’s really nice
Love you all
3 days of freedom left, 4 days til I’m off to Navy boot camp. Let’s make this count
I’m blowing up my life as I know it the second I leave for the navy. My past notes have given an insight to the fact that my life is not alright and that the best way is to get rid of damn near everything and just build it up again. I’ve been in a depressive state for days and have not had one ounce of love/affection from anyone (so I feel) and has taken a massive toll on me. Coming from a guy who cares and gives, its been two, three weeks of nothing but hurt and disappointment. 10 days, time’s up, and no one is safe
My friends have been letdowns. Gf is 2hrs away and is busy all the time, and I no longer have joy in speaking to anyone. Real depressive state, pissed off, upset, unhappy, unloved, un-everything. She can’t make me happy, friends are sucking at that part and will verbally abuse them if they stunt up with “we need to hang out” line. I’m fucking done. Send me to boot camp so I can leave this bullshit behind I’m sick of it now. Ready to start my next chapter
start spamming my inbox with questions or ridiculous stuff. I have two weeks left before I go in to the Navy. Let’s have some fun
Damn, I would kill for some sexy time right now
So far i havent enjoyed my new years. Nothing has gone right, i hate it. I guess only way is up?
Open to any and all questions, nothing is off limits, anon or not
I’ll try again later. Im gonna attempt to be more active on here until i leave for navy boot camp in february. Just help me out here. Love you all
I hope you read this. If i know youre talking about me ima chime in and put in my two cents, regardless of what i said earlier. Dont like it, fine whatever. Just note that anything made public is open to criticism
I’ll make the announcement here first since the least amnt of ppl i personally know are on here. All i ask is to keep it to yourselves til i make the announcements later.
Ive decided to join the United States Navy. This past week i have been working with recruiters and doing tests and the lot and today i go to MEPS (military entrance processing station) to take a physical, pick a job and make it official. Its part of my life plans to get moving on this due in part of my gf being accepted into University of Florida and that now is the time to provide a steady foundation to my future. Its gonna be a long hard road but i’ll be ready for it
I express how i feel so if im laying out expletives it doesnt mean they are directed at you unless im talking about you. Also im f’n sick of pretty much hearing that i need to check my anger. When i start punching walls and verbally abusing ppl, thats when i have a problem. Until then, im gonna express how i feel the way i want to express it that will leave me either feeling better afterwards or not thinking about it later. Im done holding stuff in and unless you are gonna hear me out, step to the side and let me vent to someone who’s not gonna put a filter on my mouth
is punch my ex’s fiance in the face for the grief he caused me.
or should i say, ex-fiance….
The gf said that she would either call or show up today to talk things over. Hopefully she holds up her end of the bargain because this cannot drag out past today. I’m ready to end this spat and set everything straight. And you can never totally prepare yourself if worse comes to worse and we end up ending our relationship but to be honest im as prepared for that as i can be, if it comes to it…..if we really do end our time together i would have enjoyed our time together but at the same time i would regret that it ended so stupidly for something going so well. I’m gonna fight to make things right however if she doesn’t feel the same about me anymore then theres no point in keeping it going because she will never feel the same about me, no matter what i say or what i do. I really am disappointed in her mainly because, even though the comments i made i brought this upon myself, its the fact that our almost 3 years of loving each other and trusting each other doesnt mean a damn thing because if it did, this issue wouldnt of gotten to this point. I feel like my commitment means nothing to her now, everything ive done for her means nothing to her now, and right now it pisses me off to think that the only thing thats going through her mind is that “its because you fucking like her.” Yes i do like her, she’s my best bestfriend, no i dont have those feelings for her anymore, and you know it. Youve known it for almost 3 years now and now our relationship is in a tailspin because of something i was OPEN AND HONEST about at the beginning. And theres so much more to it, down to when i would sever the relationship if it caused me to be forcibly separated from my friends by you because you cant base a relationship without trust and right now you are showing me that you have no trust in me because if it came down to picking her over you i would choose her because of straight up jealousy on your part. Im never sacrificing friends for a relationship because that not how it goes, and im definitely not sacrificing my best friend, who helped me through my last relationship and got me out of it, who leaned on me for advice and support when she went through and actually got me and you together. Honestly i really do feel like this could be the end and this would be an extremely sucky way to end
im ready to end this mess, once and for all